Wednesday, January 4, 2012

Psalm 4:2

O men, how long shall my honor suffer shame?  How long will you love vain words, and seek after lies?
You rabble - how long do I put up with your scorn?  How long will you lust after lies?  How long will you live crazed by illusion?
    To me, this verse defines depression:  shame, lies, illusion.  You may be blaming yourself or telling yourself that those you love would be better off without you.  These are lies and believing them makes us ashamed.  Depression is an insidious disease that fills your mind with lies and illusions.  When you think these thoughts, tell yourself out loud, "It's a lie."  Tell yourself you will not accept these lies anymore.  Seek the truth:  this illness is not your fault and those you love need you.  You will be well again. 

    Lord, my shame and my thoughts feel so true.  Give me the strength to recognize the shame and the thoughts for what they are:  lies and illusion.  Fill me with thoughts that are true and the peace of knowing that my disease can be healed.  Amen.

    Monday, January 2, 2012

    Psalm 3:3

    But thou, O Lord, art a shield about me, my glory and the lifter of my head.
    But you, God, shield me on all sides; You ground my feet, you lift my head high.


      Depression is lonely.  It's hard to feel God shielding you.  Depression is a weight.  It's hard to lift up your head.  Remember this verse as you lie down.  Remember this verse each time you get up.  God is with you, shielding you and healing you.  Every time you lift your head is by God's grace.  God's plan is for you to glorify him with your recovery.  Go for a walk and keep your body erect and your head up.  Take a break from thinking about your depression and dwell on this verse, matching the words to your steps.  

      Lord, it's so hard to lift my head.  My head feels heavy and my mind feels foggy.  Help me to hope for the opportunity to glorify you with and for my healing.  Lead me out the door to walk and bless my efforts to recover.  Amen.

      Saturday, December 31, 2011

      Psalm 2:13

      Blessed are all who take refuge in him.
      But if you make a run for God - you won't regret it!

        The third way Miriam-Webster's Online Dictionary defines refuge is "something into which one has recourse in difficulty."  Recourse is defined as "a turning to someone for help or protection."  This verse tell us to turn to God.  Maybe you've prayed, but you don't feel his protection.  You may be angry with God or even wondering if he exists.  Tell him!  Use the safety of his refuge to express your despair.  He is with you right now in every minute of your suffering.  Dwell on this verse and let it build a feeling of blessedness and protection.

        Lord, I don't feel protected.  I feel totally exposed and vulnerable to the world.  Help me to trust in the refuge you offer.  Thank you for the people I turn to at this time, the people who are offering me help and protection.  Help me feel your refuge through them.  Amen

        Friday, December 30, 2011

        Psalm 1:6

        ...for the Lord knows the way of the righteous...
        GOD charts the road you take.
          Could it be that God has charted this road?  The ways of the world bring on depression, but God can chart the way out.  Think of the ways God is using to bring you out of depression.  Dwell on the family and friends and professionals who are guiding you on the road out of depression, if only to recite their names to spite your thoughts of hopelessness.  Even though you may not feel his presence, thank God for these people.  God is using them to do his will.  His will is to bring you to wholeness and wellness and joy.

          Lord, my mind is filled with sadness.  Help me to be thankful for those who are helping me through this.  Guide them in leading me down the road you have charted for me.  Help me to find hope in your desire for my joy.  Amen